EJ and Sami really get to me, even when I’m determined to look away.  I say, nothing can come of this…..and then they look at each other, and I’m lost. What is it about this couple that keeps me on the hook, and begging for more?

Thursday and Friday’s US episodes of Days of our Lives had EJ and Sami’s griefsex secret come out to Rafe and Nicole, and at the end of Friday’s episode, there was a little look that passed between EJami that had me squealing in glee….and then in despair – how can I go for this again?

For the longest time, I was very positive that EJ and Sami had to eventually admit their feelings for each other and would be given a chance to be an honest to goodness couple. So positive there was nothing I wouldn’t have wagered that it was destined. How could any show ever ignore that kind of combustible chemistry? It simply doesn’t happen every day, but when it does, logic dictates that any good drama would use it. Right? …..right. >.<

But, as the years wore on, it got harder and harder to cling to that idea – every time they got even remotely close, something bad (epically, horrifically bad) would happen to dash my hopes. I had begun to watch Days again out of habit, instead of enjoyment. For a while there, it was barely recognizable as the soap opera that had been part of my life for so long. Every story was painful to watch, with characters that looked familiar, but that was it.

The reset made me happy as a general Days fan, and skeptical, as an EJami – the show was better….but I still didn’t see an EJami story. I needed EJ and Sami scenes like a thirsty woman craves water and chocolate (ok, that’s what I crave anyway).  I was excited when, out of the blue, EJ and Sami would have sex as a reaction to the news of Johnny’s “death.” It wasn’t romantic, it seemed so crazy, but I didn’t care – I could see them in scenes and I’d enjoy it while I could. Then after those hard yet well acted scenes, I wondered, what happened?  Not seeing them in scenes was frustrating and confusing – where were those looks I’ve always loved between EJami? Nowhere to be found. So I chalked it up to shock value, and started finding other shows and books to fill my time.  But inevitably there’d be a song, or a scene in a movie or book that would remind me of EJami and what could be.  I told myself it wasn’t happening, and I had to move on.

And then that look – that look pulls me in once more.  So here I am, again. I feel like Charlie Brown, and Lucy’s waving that football in my face one more time. I know it never seems to happen. I know that it could begin and then be pulled away. But that stubborn part, that hopeful part of me, can’t help it – I’m going to try to kick that ball. And I’m going to watch for Ejami – they make DAYS so much better for me.